My heart bulged in my tight chest.

It grew heavier and weaker all at once.

I could hear it knocking in my ears.

My feet felt like they were tacked into the ground.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t lift them.

My mouth fell open in disbelief.

Then my blood ran hot.

Then I thought.

How dare you?

How dare you tell me “I have my own family and my own life”?

As if I asked you to be my father, right?

How dare you?

How dare you tell me “I’m upset and this thing we’re trying to do is over”?

I’m not one of your women, I’m your daughter.

How dare you?

You can’t break up with me.

I am your first offspring.

My own, my own flesh.

He looked at me and told me this like I never mattered.

I died inside, and my whole world shattered.

Those sharp words pierced me and then my blood splattered.

It splattered all over him.

It stained his eyes, his flesh, his mind, his heart, his soul and spirit.

Nothing, no cleaning he could ever do to get rid of it.

I turned away.

I had nothing else to say.

What could take this feeling away?

I felt lifeless as I walked back inside.

Everyone in the same places.

I ran upstairs.

Faster than any of my college track races.

Panting, out of air.

Why? How could he say this?

He doesn’t even care.

No one ever leaves me breathless.

“But it isn’t my fault”

“I didn’t do anything wrong”

That’s what I thought.

How am I the kid

but I’m the adult?

My eyes swelled with blinding tears.

I cleansed my soul, heart, my whole being from him.

Everything bottled up from over the years.

I said, “never, never again”.

You reap what you sow man.

You have no idea what you’ve just done to me.

You changed everything I am.

My success will avenge me.

From that moment on, I promised myself that no one would ever again, hurt me that way.

No one would make me feel dead with the words they say.

You do not know of me, I am Plaserae.