I’m so tired of struggling, it’s unacceptable. Once I leave this chapter, I’m not turning back. I’m blocking it off! I absolutely refuse to be here again. I’m tired of being broke. I’m tired of feeling like I always need some type of help. It makes you feel like less of a person. At least, if you’re anything like me who wants to be extremely independent. When people say, “the struggle is real” it symbolizes much more than a joke. Maybe they’re just laughing at their misery or trying to be happy when everything in their lives is telling them not to. I am aware people do have it worse than me. Pretty much everyone in America is struggling. So, what makes me so different?
It’s like … I’m always just barely keeping my head above water. It’s so repetitive. Pay check to pay check. I know being broke or living barely above water is not my fate. It’s not meant for me. That is simply the reason I work so damn hard! I’m not saying that it’s meant for some people. But it is if you ACCEPT it. I’m simply not ACCEPTING it. I try to be positive and see the light in almost all situations. So, I know I’m capable of living with just enough to get by. However, that is the bare minimum and I am an overachiever.
There are people who have had everything handed to them their whole life or never had to work for anything. Some would say they’re lucky. I don’t think they’re all that lucky. ‘Cause what goes up must come down. Eventually, they could hit rock bottom and not know what to do, how to adjust, or how to live. In life, you must be adaptable. It is a necessary. You don’t have much of a choice. I just know that once I get to where I want to be in life I’m not turning back. This is one chapter of my book. I’m not going to be in this same position ever again. That is a promise. It’s UNACCEPTABLE.